I recently read the book, 13 Things Mentally Strong People Don't Do by Amy Morin. I realized that I "score" really well when I apply these strengths to my creative life, however, where I fail (and where I continue to fail - this is where failure goes awry) is with the last (number 13): They Don't Expect Immediate Results. This is a tricky one because I really don't expect immediate results (I wish I expected more, actually) but, after two years of effort without a significant, giant (undefinable, monumental, lightning bolt) jump, I second guess myself. And this is where those negative thoughts attack. This is where I meet my crossroad. Again.
Today, I am committing to not making this same mistake over and over again (number 8). Today I want to have strength in the midst of, what I feel, is a lack of external momentum. Today it is even more important that I find my momentum from within. What is powerful, here, is what I choose to think. I can either say it's not enough and let this thought system develop and grow or I can continue to do the best I can do with what I have at this very moment.
If I take what I have and "start" from here, I may actually break this repetitive pattern in my life.
Today, I am staking the other path at this particular crossroads.
I am in the process of receiving recommendations for a creative coach. I am interested in working with someone who can support me through my inner, belief-bound behaviors and assist me in committing to myself, my vision and my day to day path. Similar to how I coach others, I believe the more leaps we take from within, the more that is able to manifest without.