I think I am learning

I found this gold mine yesterday.

This is from another one of my journals titled Season of Solitude.  

This entry was made November 17, 2010.

I think I am learning.  I think I am learning that I deserve to sit, that I deserve the quiet.  I think I am learning that sitting and quiet are the best preparation.  

I think I am learning to listen to my body more.  It really has violent reactions.  Today I have a headache and feel nausea.  These subtle symptoms are debilitating.

I think I am learning about the simplicity I crave.  I think I am learning how to be born, deserving.  I hope I am learning.  I always want to learn.  I think I am learning how to have relationships on my terms.  I think I am learning that everyone makes mistakes.  I think I am learning that I don't ever have to know it all.  I think I am learning that I cannot ever do it alone.  I think I am learning what brings me freedom, joy, energy and laughter.  I think I am learning how to sit with my cat, Chester, after 18 years.  I think I am learning that I just need to focus on me.  I think I am learning what I need to feel comfortable.