complacency

Once in awhile I realize I am experiencing complacency.  This is alarming and, simultaneously, awakening.  I bounce from one disappointment to another, forgetting that the only person I can really rely on is myself, my spirit self.  I lose track of my momentum so quickly, becoming distracted by disappointing experiences (and I am the only one choosing for these experiences to affect me).  

I have been flip flopping between old comforts the last week or so.  This is so easy for me (and will continue to be a lifelong battle for me, I am sure).  

At this moment, I want to choose to put down complacency and old comforts and continue to move forward with vision.  I want to identify a mile marker on the road towards my long term vision.  Slowly and surely (daily) I need to return to putting one foot in front of the other until I reach it, always keeping my eyes ahead.  When my eyes wander to the side, it takes me too long to regain my footing (and my focus).