reflections from FALL of 2024

 

nature: first artist

walkabout, November 2024

My reflections:

I CANNOT afford to spend ANY time thinking about what isn't working.  All I can do is spend time focussing on what IS working.

I have worked SO HARD (internally) to get HERE.  It's a full time job to believe this is possible AND to maintain it.  Do NOT belittle that with "I am so lucky I get to do this."

I profusely thank myself for staying committed to my life, work and earning as an artist.

There are as many ways to live as there are people.  There are as many ways to earn as there are people.  My life is Divinely designed.  Why can't it continue to be?

My motto for living doesn't have to be anyone else's to know, understand or believe in.

I choose today over tomorrow.

I choose believing over doubt.  EVERY day.

Art is only possible IN THE MOMENT.

The more I take care of myself, the more I receive from the Universe (or the more the Universe takes care of me).

Quotes in my journal:

"The opposite of belonging is fitting in." - source unknown

"No one is the president of your soul but you.  Thank God our personal journey of evolution is not a group project." - Lalah Delia

"ALL IS WELL.  Everything is working out for our highest good  Out of this situation, only good will come from this.  We are safe." - Louise Hay

I read Sonny Boy by Al Pacino:

"NOW is possible.  All of the sudden, in that moment, I was universal.  I knew I didn't have to worry after that.  I didn't.  I eat.  I don't eat.  I make money.  I don't make money.  I'm famous.  I'm not famous.  It didn't mean anything anymore and that's lucky.  In this business,, when you don't care about that, that's lucky.  A door was opening.  Not a career, not to success.  No! but to the living spirit of energy I had been given this insight into myself and there was nothing else I could do but say, 'I want to do this thing forever.'"

"I can do anything now.  And I don't have to be rich and I don't have to be successful or famous.  I know I have this.  It's the appetite TO DO THIS.  It will serve me regardless.  When you have an appetite, you find a way.  I'll wait and I'll find my people."

WIND BREAKER, 36x48, kari maxwell, 2025

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